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[gallery] Take a look at that meme above. Come to think of it, I think I get it. Men feel the love in their heart but they don’t even dare to think about it. That’s why sometimes they just keep it safe and sound to control the damage. While women, dare to think about love all the time especially when there are sweet memories running in their head, and they feel it deeply in their heart. It’s just men’s way to protect their mind. Coz in fact they’re scared… That the thoughts of love will occupy their mind all the time. So women may seem weak, but the truth is they’re that brave to think and feel the love, as much as it might cost.

In the state of mad with my heart.

I swear, once I get thru this phase, I would write it down and read it all over again to remind myself, how to get over it, how to live with the consequences, how to fully move on and let go.. I once got thru it and regret myself for not documenting the process, the stages, the tips and tricks on how to do it. Now I have to do it again from the scratch, with bigger stone to crash, a greater memories to dash, the same object to crack. Lucky I have a life partner who understands me better than anyone could ever do. The one who seems to have enduring patience and amazing ability to empathy. The one who I can discuss anything with. The one who keeps me sane. One day, sooner later, I will wake up sober. Monday, November fourth 2013
[gallery]               We Wear the Mask     WE wear the mask that grins and lies,     It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,—     This debt we pay to human guile;     With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,     And mouth with myriad subtleties.     Why should the world be over-wise,     In counting all our tears and sighs?     Nay, let them only see us, while             We wear the mask.     We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries     To thee from tortured souls arise.     We sing, but oh the clay is vile     Beneath our feet, and long the mile;     But let the world dream otherwise,             We wear the mask! Paul Laurence Dunbar (1872-1906) Repost November fourth 2013

We Grow Together

Si kk itu sangat perasa, apa2 pendekatannya harus melalui feeling. Semakin diperlakukan keras, semakin kuat dia menolak. Metode reward & punishment nggak cocok diterapkan ke dia. Kalau hatinya sedang senang, dia mampu mengerjakan tugas2nya secara mandiri. Seperti tadi, selesai makan malam dia langsung ambil buku2 pelajarannya dan mengerjakan PR sendiri di kamar atas, sementara mommy masih mendampingi si adik di bawah. Begitu selesai, dia minta mommy cek dan ternyata dari sekian banyak pertanyaan isian, jawabannya benar semua! Tanpa banyak tanya ke mommy. Padahal sudah lumayan susah sciencenya, bahasa inggris pula pengantarnya. Tapi kalau suasana hatinya sedang tidak bagus, wah.. Satu pertanyaan bisa satu jam ngerjainnya. Beneran! Dulu ini yang sering bikin mommy senewen. Karena mommy ngga ngerti gimana cara handlenya dengan tepat, biasanya diterapkan punishment nggak boleh melakukan apapun yang dia suka sebelum selesai mengerjakan tugas2nya. Kalau nggak mempan juga, nyerah.. Nunggu...
[gallery] The only reason why I dont like to wear my wedding ring is because it doesn’t fit my finger anymore as I gained more weights (baca: gendutan :p). While I put it off everytime I take a bath and go to sleep, and often forget to wear it again and even lost it several times due to misplace. I asked hubby to change the size and he showed his wedding ring print on his finger. It’s definitely more bold than mine, as he gained way more weights than me. But never I saw him put off the ring, not even once. I asked him why, he said: “I keep it this way so I can’t lie to anyone that I’m married. Even if I hide the ring, the print of it will stay visible.”
[gallery] When the time to marry my kids has come one day, I would respectfully let them decide how they want it to be. I would not push or suggest them to have a grande wedding ceremony in a spacious ballroom, invite hundreds or thousands people that only a few they really know, shake their hands one by one with a template smile for hours.. unless if they want it that way. I would be more than happy if they wish to have an intimate garden party, inviting only a few close friends & relatives, mingle with them and make sincere laughters.. Or if they simply want to have a travel wedding: travelling anywhere n put the announcement in newspaper/magz that they’re happily married..
[gallery] Diundang ke event Paddle Pop di Dufan sekeluarga. Sejak datang nongkrong di Starbucks sama panitia sampai saat nonton di teater, selalu bareng2 sama bintang tamu. Belakangan baru tau kalau bintang tamunya itu adalah Coboy Junior, group vokal anak yg beranjak remaja, yang ternyata punya fans bejibun! Pantes aja pada histeris lihat penampilan mereka di panggung, sementara kita daritadi kalem2 aja bareng mereka terus (kecuali si mbak yang heboh sendiri). Ya habis, kita nggak kenal, karena jarang nonton tv… :D 
Kemarin di ruang tunggu dokter, saya membaca cerita tentang anak yg kecanduan game online separah kecanduan narkoba, sampai bolos sekolah 3 bulan hanya demi main game, hingga harus diterapi segala. Orangtua sang anak saling menyalahkan, karena tidak ada kesepakatan dalam hal pengasuhan. Sang ibu melarang anaknya main game di warnet, sementara ayahnya justru mengantar jemput ke warnet. Sang ibu tidak mau anaknya diberi uang jajan sejak awal, sementara ayahnya memberikannya uang jajan, yg kemudian dipakai untuk main game online seharian. Tadi pagi ibu mertua cerita tentang seorang anak yg nakalnya minta ampun, karena kedua orangtuanya tidak kompak dalam pengasuhan, bagaikan musuh dalam selimut. Si ayah sering menjelek2kan ibunya kepada anaknya, sedangkan ibunya juga tidak mengajarkan respek kepada ayahnya. Si ayah terlalu toleran, sementara si ibu terlalu tangan besi. Maka anak itu menjadi tidak hormat pada orangtuanya, pembangkang dan liar. Benang merahnya adalah, jika orangtua tidak ko...
[gallery] Pernah memperhatikan sarang burung di atas dahan? Biasanya sarang itu bertengger di batang yg bersimpangan, karena memang itulah posisi paling aman. Saya merasa disitulah posisi saya sekarang ini dalam kehidupan. Mulai menikmati zona nyaman, meski sadar bahwa kenyamanan itu menghanyutkan… But heck, currently I just wanna enjoy my life, with all I got, coz nothing is immortal in this world =)