About Boredom
When we almost arrived home after new year staycation today, hubby asked me: ”Do you ever get bored with me?”
I turned to him and asked him back: “Do you ever?” which he responded quickly, “Of course not.”
Before I had the chance to answer, we arrived home and the conversation discontinued as we were busy clearing things off from the car.
He didn’t seem eager to continue the conversation, perhaps he’s just not ready IF I give him an ugly truth.
In the state of mad with my heart.
I swear, once I get thru this phase, I would write it down and read it all over again to remind myself, how to get over it, how to live with the consequences, how to fully move on and let go..
I once got thru it and regret myself for not documenting the process, the stages, the tips and tricks on how to do it. Now I have to do it again from the scratch, with bigger stone to crash, a greater memories to dash, the same object to crack.
Lucky I have a life partner who understands me better than anyone could ever do. The one who seems to have enduring patience and amazing ability to empathy. The one who I can discuss anything with. The one who keeps me sane.
One day, sooner later, I will wake up sober.
Monday, November fourth 2013
Dear God,
Please bring peace to the riots of logic and heart.
Sincerely,
Mind
Motley Crue - If I Die Tomorrow [HQ] - YouTube
Sudden death of our friend has got me thinking:
Is there any word unspoken?
For if there is, that must be the source of a deep regret.
“If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can’t remember
Have I said all I can say?
You’re my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow”
Kemarin di ruang tunggu dokter, saya membaca cerita tentang anak yg kecanduan game online separah kecanduan narkoba, sampai bolos sekolah 3 bulan hanya demi main game, hingga harus diterapi segala. Orangtua sang anak saling menyalahkan, karena tidak ada kesepakatan dalam hal pengasuhan. Sang ibu melarang anaknya main game di warnet, sementara ayahnya justru mengantar jemput ke warnet. Sang ibu tidak mau anaknya diberi uang jajan sejak awal, sementara ayahnya memberikannya uang jajan, yg kemudian dipakai untuk main game online seharian.
Tadi pagi ibu mertua cerita tentang seorang anak yg nakalnya minta ampun, karena kedua orangtuanya tidak kompak dalam pengasuhan, bagaikan musuh dalam selimut. Si ayah sering menjelek2kan ibunya kepada anaknya, sedangkan ibunya juga tidak mengajarkan respek kepada ayahnya. Si ayah terlalu toleran, sementara si ibu terlalu tangan besi. Maka anak itu menjadi tidak hormat pada orangtuanya, pembangkang dan liar.
Benang merahnya adalah, jika orangtua tidak kompak dalam hal pengasuhan, jangan heran jika suatu saat terjadi masalah, kemudian akan saling menyalahkan.